As of Sept 26th I will have been with my SL dad Coleman Ansar for a year. When I joined the Ansar family, it was with a mom and dad and a variety of sisters, brothers that have come and gone. Some of which I have kept close to my heart, others that I let go due to some drama or other.
Yesterday my then mom “let me go”. Differences, distance and a disconnect that was completely cut from past choices we had both made. Life wasn’t moving forward as we had hoped, it had actually taken a step forward then 3 back, then another up and another 4 back. She may never believe that I really loved her and respected her but the last 12 months have been tough going and yesterday a decision was made to part ways. Sadly it wasn’t made in a good way atleast on my part and I’m now fairly upset about things that have been said and done. Its amazing what you find out after the fact. The stories I didn’t want to believe a year ago, resurrecting, the stuff that has been said since. Changes how things are look upon today.
What it has shown me is that not all SL relationships are meant to be, that when push comes to shove ALWAYS follow your gut. If you get a bad feeling about something, follow it, see whats its about. If you don’t atleast check, your going to waste a year of your life and realize that wow, my gut was telling me something.
Now I don’t think the last year was a complete waste. I fixed the relationship with my dad that I thought had gone bad. Gone bad because I was being fed stuff that wasn’t exactly truth. Thankfully I’m generally a person that confronts the problem so I did with my Dad and we worked on our relationship and he has been there unconditionally from that point on.
I’m greatful for the family, the friends and the people I have met. I think all experiences in SL make you a better person and it helps you realize exactly what it is that you want or don’t want in Second life. I mean it is suppose to be a place where you can see and do the things you can’t do in RL. Its about creating a place where you can escape the real world for a little while and meet people from around the world. While I know drama exists as long as you are speaking to other human beings, it doesn’t mean that you have to remain in relationships that consistently revolve in it.
To everyone who has stood behind me always, I love you and cherish you. To those that have come and gone. I wish you all the best, I don’t wish you negative stuff (ok that may not always be true, but wow I must really dislike you to feel that much animosity towards you), I just hope you find what ever it is that will make you happy.
